Beginnings

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I find myself drawn to the prospect of new beginnings, a new chapter, a new year, even Sundays. Growing up I would make an extensive list of things I would change in my new beginnings. Lists for every new year, new diets I would start the next month, or on a Sunday. Lists for each grade in highschool, and for college...lists that I rarely ever accomplished anything on.

I also just started graduate school and quickly realized my assumption that my study habits would drastically change from those of my undergrad have been completely unfounded. I am still drawn to the couch, (recently discovering Netflix on my Wii has not helped!) But I have now reached one of the biggest "new beginnings" of my life, my marriage. Experience has finally taught me to not rely on extensive lists for change. I will not suddenly become selfless, constantly sweet and encouraging, or love to cook overnight!

I love this new beginning, but I am only putting one word on my list.

Courage.

Courage to fight the apathy that can loom over my world. Courage to seek a stronger relationship with God. Courage to become a better person, for myself and for Josh. Courage to reach out to those around me. Courage to step out side of my comfort zone.

Courage to grow.